OWLS.


They seem to be following me...
Since i baught a nice new jumper with an owl on it....
Since my birthday when my nan gave me an owl dream catcher.....


two nights ago,
my dad was driving me home from work or somewhere,
and this huge and i mean huge barn owl came flying out of some random trees,
and came down low, almost flying along side our car. ive never seen a wild owl so close.
then last night my mum complaned of screaching outside her bedroom window.
turned out a tawny owl was sitting on the fence outside our house, just sqwarking.

8 months later...

well well well where to begin.?so much has happened once again. its now october and i havnt posted a blog in 8 months. So, after tom left, i ended up gettin with radburn. we have been together offically since march 10th. so 7 months. but were seeing eachother 2 months before that. we lived in the house for a few more months together. toms room became the shesh room known as the doom room. we had shit loads of parties. me and chris are epic together. eventually moved into his mums. i put on 2 stone in weight. still work in the kitchen. kelly and her fat arse left us. as did vicki, lyne, carla, marie, everyone really.

current shizz- 
*my beautiful nanny is in hospital again. this time its really bad. the cancer i guess has spread from her stomach, she has infected liver and kidneys which are completely useless now. she is stick thin and the other night had a stroke so she cannot talk or hardly open her eyes. i hate it. shes sush a brave and independent woman.i wish she could pull through. i keep having dreams that she is getting better. but her insides are fucked so i know she cant get well again. my mums real bad :'(
*im planning many tattoos. ivy leaves for granny ivy, my somewhere out there for patty, im thinking maybe an owl dreamcatcher for nanny, or a st helena flag if there is one. fayes will be a rose maybe with a fairy on it. mums will be a daffodil with a dragonfly on it. dads a tiny chainsaw and maybe some small pick axs. grandad hurrells will be either fish, an slr or something to do with his time in the raf. grandad fitters will be something to do with the navy, like anchors and helms. or maybe a pumpkin too.
*ive started a serious job hunt. me and chris had a fall out. i found out hes pissed that i havnt made any effort to find a new job so we can move out together. so thats what im doing.
*ive gone from 10mg of citalapram to 150mg of sertraline. deffo helps :)
*costa gave chris a car, we are gonna learn to drive.
*halloween is soon! i fuckin love halloween. sorted me and chris' outfits and they are in the post. we are mr and mrs skeleton <3 having a houseparty around chichiboy liams. i love liams new place its huge!
*chris baught me my beautiful £500 slr camera for my birthday. i love it so much.
*we go noodlebar on a regular basis and orange wednesdays seem to becoming routine :)
*i might be getting a leopard gecko. beautiful little things
*its 04.04am im not sleeping. could well be too much on my mind.
mums been crying in her sleep every night. shes nackered.
me and chris are still a little rocky but we are making it work.


red & yellow & pink & green, orange & purple & blue.

A mixed start.

JANUARY

The worst start to a year I've ever had.

January has been simply awful.
It started only hours after the new year began. On the drunken walk home to my friends house around 5am where a fully grown man punched me clean in the face, splitting my nose and blacking my eye.

Pressing charges would mean charges would be pressed against me and my friend as he tried to defend me by battering the man.

Next up was the breakup between me and Tom. We had been arguing for months on end, i didn't trust him and we never did anything together. We decided we were no good for each other and the next day he left his house and moved to stoke on trent, transferring his job and leaving my friend who he lived with in the the shit.

Turns out our kitten who was like our little baby boy, wasn't being looked after very well due to us now being separated. So now we are like a pair of divorcee's fighting over a child and trying to work out whats for the best.

Lastly i nearly died. I got a kidney infection which hospitalised me for 5 days. I was on a drip and all sorts of anti biotics and pain killers, some of which were so strong they made me throw up. My veins all shut down so they struggled to fit canulars. They told me if they if they couldn't get a canular in i would loose my kidneys and could die.

Luckily i survived January and February is looking GOOOD.

FEBRUARY

This month is looking to be much better. Ive been getting used to not being with Tom. Loki my kitten is safe at Radburn's mums house, where he will be looked after until Tom comes to collect him.

Ive been spending lots of time round the YMCA with brad and Luke and everyone else, seshing it fast and hard, getting very little sleep, lots of highs and cuddles.

We are planning a trip to Devon for Luke's 21st. It seemed like a brilliant plan at the time, but now we don't seem be be able to get enough cars together for the amount of people who are going. Brad is stressing because he is in so much debt and he is trying to get loans for this holiday to rent a car etc. But we are mega determined to get this working.

I got a facebook invitation to Deans 22nd birthday a fair few months ago. The invite said -

"Lets all jump out of a plane for Deans 22nd"

I dismissed it at first thinking "yeah right like that will ever happen" but then today i noticed that the event was in two days time, and i noticed all the information and realised its legit. SO i am now going skydiving in two days time. With all the bad luck i had in January, I'm hoping this month will be less unlucky, and that this isn't just an unlucky year. I don't really want to die o.O

Anyway, if i survive this jump on Friday, i will be lucky enough to be taken out to lunch by dear Bradley for an all you can eat Chinese on saterday.

And then EVEN BETTER, Claudia my beautiful German best friend is coming back to England for just under a week on Sunday. I cant wait to see her. The ex Lewis has once again made me wonder why the hell i broke up with him. He is such a star, coz he is gonna drive me to gatwick to pick Claudia up <3

(&& HE MAKES ME LAUGH LIKE HELL)

February seems to be shaping up quite nicely.
i hope it stays that way.